it's been a rough, rough week!
the hours spent worrying in the hospital - praying that my Grandma would stick around with us a little longer...then her passing was of course the hardest thing i've had 2 face in quite some time! but her wake last evening, & funeral 2day, showed us all just how much she was loved & admired...it was so special 2 see folks i hadn't seen in many, many years...& 2 hear stories about just how loving & generous my Grandma was (they didn't tell me anything i didn't already know ~wink~)...& it felt really good 2 celebrate her life, rather than mourn & cry about her leaving us
of course, there were definitely some tears! i didn't quite expect my kiddos 2 get as upset as they did 2day (i didn't take them 2 the wake last eve) - all 3 shed tears & asked questions that i didn't think i'd have 2 answer 4 a long time...Corinn was especially effected - she sobbed & sobbed at the funeral 2day - saying "i just can't stop - i miss Grandma Tolly"...it broke my heart...but after lots & lots of discussions these last few days, all 3 understand that she is now at peace - in heaven with Jesus, no longer needing her wheelchair - singing & dancing with the Lord...& she's happier than she could ever b!
it rained all day long - even at the burial...luckily, i thought 2 grab our umbrellas on the way out...after the meal, we headed home - got here just as the sun was starting 2 peek out from the clouds...i was optimistic & hung some clothes out on the clothesline 2 dry
then it was time 2 follow-up on our week-long battle with Curt's HR lady (the senile old battle ax)...bout the last thing i felt like doing!
earlier this week, i mentioned how she totally screwed up our vacation request...i spent all day yesterday, online searching 4 other options, just in case - but it turns out that the deal we get is utterly AMAZING! we'd have 2 pay triple or quadruple what we give RCI, 2 get something comparable this time of year...so, 2day was the final day - we either got a hit on a resort, or we're not going 2 the beach at all...Curtis & i made several phone calls - convinced her 2 keep trying up until the very last minute...but alas, we got nothing!
soooo, here i am - sulking in disappointment - wondering if this week could possibly get any worse...i look out the window & guess what - it's pouring down rain! i run out & gather the clothes back in - crying & cussing the whole time!
i come back inside, say fuck it! & pour myself a glass of wine
i call Curtis & cry it out (yep, he had 2 head in2 work after the funeral) - we weigh our options & try 2 decide what the smartest thing 2 do is...neither of us like the idea of staying up at Massanutten - it's a total waste of money really - we can use their resort activities regardless of whether we stay up there or not (using Curt's employee ID)...so do we do the day (or 2) trip 2 a closer beach, go 2 Kings Dominion 4 a day, etc.? or do we submit new dates to the HR bitch & hope 4 the best? at this point, we're gonna have 2 shoot 4 after school starts...August is right around the corner & we already have some plans that can't b broken...it looks like September will b it - not the best beach weather, but at least it'll b a relaxing week on the shore!
here i am, just starting on my 2nd glass when my sister calls all excited - "did u see the rainbow?!" i told her i wasn't really in the rainbow hunting mood & got off the phone
but i guess i lied - i peeled my butt off the sofa & went outside 2 look...& i'm glad i did - it put a smile on my face & made me realize what a sorry piece of crap i was being!
i needed that reminder...that God always provides 4 our needs...that regardless of how hard the rain is pouring down on us - there will always b sunshine & rainbows 2 follow
i came inside & broke the bad news 2 the kiddos - explained 2 them that we wouldn't b headed 2 the beach 2moro...boy, talk about tears! they've been counting this down 4 a loooong time! i promise i didn't just pop this on em tho - we'd been warning them all week that it might not happen...then, i promised them that we would get there this year! no matter what, we'll make it happen!
i called Curtis back - we decided 2 take the kiddos 2 Trout Pond on Sunday & 2 the waterpark (where Curt works) Friday eve (i'll go ahead in2 work all week, but Curtis will still have 2moro thru Monday + Friday off)...we're gonna make the best of a bad situation - still have a great weekend with the kiddos since Curtis is off & we'll just submit our new dates 2 HR on Monday - & pray that we get a hit since it's so much later in the season
i needed that rainbow - a slap in the face - 2 remind me that i've got it pretty darn good!
not many ppl get the opportunity 2 have their Grandma around 4 almost all of the 30 years of their life (yes, i turn 30 on the 29th)...2 have their kiddos get 2 know & grow up loving their great-grandma...& 2 get 2 say goodbye during those final hours
not many ppl get such an amazing hook up on a private resort beach vacation - i need 2 b thankful 4 whatever stinkin' week we can get!
i thank u Lord 4 that reminder!
i really needed that!
;0)
the hours spent worrying in the hospital - praying that my Grandma would stick around with us a little longer...then her passing was of course the hardest thing i've had 2 face in quite some time! but her wake last evening, & funeral 2day, showed us all just how much she was loved & admired...it was so special 2 see folks i hadn't seen in many, many years...& 2 hear stories about just how loving & generous my Grandma was (they didn't tell me anything i didn't already know ~wink~)...& it felt really good 2 celebrate her life, rather than mourn & cry about her leaving us
of course, there were definitely some tears! i didn't quite expect my kiddos 2 get as upset as they did 2day (i didn't take them 2 the wake last eve) - all 3 shed tears & asked questions that i didn't think i'd have 2 answer 4 a long time...Corinn was especially effected - she sobbed & sobbed at the funeral 2day - saying "i just can't stop - i miss Grandma Tolly"...it broke my heart...but after lots & lots of discussions these last few days, all 3 understand that she is now at peace - in heaven with Jesus, no longer needing her wheelchair - singing & dancing with the Lord...& she's happier than she could ever b!
it rained all day long - even at the burial...luckily, i thought 2 grab our umbrellas on the way out...after the meal, we headed home - got here just as the sun was starting 2 peek out from the clouds...i was optimistic & hung some clothes out on the clothesline 2 dry
then it was time 2 follow-up on our week-long battle with Curt's HR lady (the senile old battle ax)...bout the last thing i felt like doing!
earlier this week, i mentioned how she totally screwed up our vacation request...i spent all day yesterday, online searching 4 other options, just in case - but it turns out that the deal we get is utterly AMAZING! we'd have 2 pay triple or quadruple what we give RCI, 2 get something comparable this time of year...so, 2day was the final day - we either got a hit on a resort, or we're not going 2 the beach at all...Curtis & i made several phone calls - convinced her 2 keep trying up until the very last minute...but alas, we got nothing!
soooo, here i am - sulking in disappointment - wondering if this week could possibly get any worse...i look out the window & guess what - it's pouring down rain! i run out & gather the clothes back in - crying & cussing the whole time!
i come back inside, say fuck it! & pour myself a glass of wine
i call Curtis & cry it out (yep, he had 2 head in2 work after the funeral) - we weigh our options & try 2 decide what the smartest thing 2 do is...neither of us like the idea of staying up at Massanutten - it's a total waste of money really - we can use their resort activities regardless of whether we stay up there or not (using Curt's employee ID)...so do we do the day (or 2) trip 2 a closer beach, go 2 Kings Dominion 4 a day, etc.? or do we submit new dates to the HR bitch & hope 4 the best? at this point, we're gonna have 2 shoot 4 after school starts...August is right around the corner & we already have some plans that can't b broken...it looks like September will b it - not the best beach weather, but at least it'll b a relaxing week on the shore!
here i am, just starting on my 2nd glass when my sister calls all excited - "did u see the rainbow?!" i told her i wasn't really in the rainbow hunting mood & got off the phone
but i guess i lied - i peeled my butt off the sofa & went outside 2 look...& i'm glad i did - it put a smile on my face & made me realize what a sorry piece of crap i was being!
i needed that reminder...that God always provides 4 our needs...that regardless of how hard the rain is pouring down on us - there will always b sunshine & rainbows 2 follow
i came inside & broke the bad news 2 the kiddos - explained 2 them that we wouldn't b headed 2 the beach 2moro...boy, talk about tears! they've been counting this down 4 a loooong time! i promise i didn't just pop this on em tho - we'd been warning them all week that it might not happen...then, i promised them that we would get there this year! no matter what, we'll make it happen!
i called Curtis back - we decided 2 take the kiddos 2 Trout Pond on Sunday & 2 the waterpark (where Curt works) Friday eve (i'll go ahead in2 work all week, but Curtis will still have 2moro thru Monday + Friday off)...we're gonna make the best of a bad situation - still have a great weekend with the kiddos since Curtis is off & we'll just submit our new dates 2 HR on Monday - & pray that we get a hit since it's so much later in the season
i needed that rainbow - a slap in the face - 2 remind me that i've got it pretty darn good!
not many ppl get the opportunity 2 have their Grandma around 4 almost all of the 30 years of their life (yes, i turn 30 on the 29th)...2 have their kiddos get 2 know & grow up loving their great-grandma...& 2 get 2 say goodbye during those final hours
not many ppl get such an amazing hook up on a private resort beach vacation - i need 2 b thankful 4 whatever stinkin' week we can get!
i thank u Lord 4 that reminder!
i really needed that!
;0)
4 comments:
what she said.....
love your writing -your word pictures bout pretty as your cakes..see i'm the kinda cat that believes there's a connection between your grandma and that rainbow, that was HER rainbow..luv ya madly
u're right Pop - Grandma Tolly sent me that rainbow, telling me 2 chill...let go & let God, right? ;0)
luv u more! the kiddos miss u guys - need 2 plan a trip up there 2 see Pop & Grandma soon! xoxoxox
I'm so sorry that you've had such a horrible week. I'm pretty sure your grandma was smiling down on you when that rainbow appeared.
Have a good weekend!
Aahh, Thank God for rainbows! Sometimes we all need those reminders! I love how it came just at the perfect time. Have fun!!
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