i'm considering this as a BEFORE picture...i've gotta get back on the ball & lose this post-cancer weight! i think i'm probably one of the only people that weighed more
after chemo, than before! ~lol~
i don't know if it was me feeling sorry for myself throughout treatment...or if i was making up for lost time once i was no longer sick? & it wasn't just that year of fighting Lymphoma...i already had a decent start on the weight gain when i got
the diagnosis (Dec 2008)
regardless - right now, i'm the heaviest i've
ever been...& that just makes me sad! :0(
i mean, look at these 2 pics (taken summer of 2007) - i can't believe how much i've changed in just 3 years! yeah, i wasn't skinny minnie then either - but i was healthy & feeling good...& that's where i want to be again!
sooooo, time to do something about it!
i don't have time for, & can't afford, the gym...so i've gotta get motivated enuff to make moves at home...i've already been walking the dog at least a mile (sometimes 2) every morning & evening...but i've gotta step that up - harder, faster, farther
i ordered the Jillian Michaels
30-day Shred like forever ago...& it's still in its wrapper :0( Curt has since borrowed the
P90X program from a friend & is obsessed with it! he also has a pretty decent "gym" set up in his workshop at home...& has offered on many occasions to "train" me or train with me if i'd like...so i really have no excuse when it comes to exercise...i just need to make it a priority & find time for ME!
then there's food - my major weakness! i'm an emotional & bored eater...& i just point blank LOVE food! there are also days when i'm on the go from the time i get up, until the kiddos are in bed (& even after)...i'll go all day & then finally realize i haven't eaten anything...& u'd think maybe at that point, i'd sit down & have a healthy meal? nope, i'm usually cleaning up leftovers from the fridge or zapping something convenient in the microwave...& usually pretty late at night - dumb move! so i've gotta get smarter...& take time to make better choices...stick to eating a healthy diet!
also, i have
hypothyroidism (thx radiation!)...so that doesn't help any...the doc has finally figured out the right dosage of meds for me...& i'm finally remembering to take em daily ;0) so hopefully that will help me out too
i'm posting this entry as a way for me to be accountable...i plan on posting updates as i begin my journey to being healthy again...i'm not about the poundage - i'm over trying to figure out what a good weight is for this 6 foot, (almost) 31 year old...i just want to be healthy...& fit regular sized clothes again!
so help me out folks! if i don't post for a while about my progress, call me out on it! ask me how i'm doing & how come i haven't been updating...but hopefully, i won't need that - i think i'm finally feeling the push to stop putting this off, & make a change!
so, here goes nothing...
