feeling a little down lately 
....mostly because of the stress/wear/burden i sometimes feel with this side gig of decorating cakes....of course, i realize this is self induced 
....never the less, it's sometimes overwhelming and i wish i had more time to just be....to enjoy my kids & husband, and not constantly have the thought of "what cake stuff do i need to do tonight?" right there in the front of my brain....the worst are days like yesterday when i get a migrane (or the kids want to spend quality time with mommy, or jaden has a ton of homework, or i'm just not feeling into it, or i just want to cuddle and watch a movie with my hubby, etc.) that i really hate that i can't just quit my real job and do cakes full time! 
i love to decorate, but sometimes start to wonder if breaking my back with requests every week is worth the headache....i'm already booked solid for the rest of this year and have sooooo many requests on my calendar for 2008! 
i've stopped taking new requests and pray that i soon see the light at the end of the tunnel....the light of owning my own shop, being my own boss, being able to balance/separate work & home, and making a living by doing what i love 
....mostly because of the stress/wear/burden i sometimes feel with this side gig of decorating cakes....of course, i realize this is self induced ....never the less, it's sometimes overwhelming and i wish i had more time to just be....to enjoy my kids & husband, and not constantly have the thought of "what cake stuff do i need to do tonight?" right there in the front of my brain....the worst are days like yesterday when i get a migrane (or the kids want to spend quality time with mommy, or jaden has a ton of homework, or i'm just not feeling into it, or i just want to cuddle and watch a movie with my hubby, etc.) that i really hate that i can't just quit my real job and do cakes full time! i love to decorate, but sometimes start to wonder if breaking my back with requests every week is worth the headache....i'm already booked solid for the rest of this year and have sooooo many requests on my calendar for 2008! i've stopped taking new requests and pray that i soon see the light at the end of the tunnel....the light of owning my own shop, being my own boss, being able to balance/separate work & home, and making a living by doing what i love 
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It is difficult balancing so many different roles. I'm just starting to understand how much time/energy even simply the idea of a side job (sewing) could be (and I only have one child at this point!). You are quite an inspiration! I admire your hard work and how involved and supportive you are as a wife and mother. You are doing an amazing job and you rock at cake decorating! I hope you are able to make it your full time work:)
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